I want to enjoy the view

I don't want to be a better person. I want to be who you want me to be. It's been a long journey. Some days all that I can think about  it's that I am a huge failure. Because one day I was so much better than I'm now. And I know that itsn't a competition, It's life and it's real. But I can't stop.

 I want to be closer to you like I never was before. You told me once that I have to wait. And I learned that wait is to suffer the time. Time of be waiting. I don't know for what or how much longer do I have to wait until I live for everything that I want to live and for what you told me that I will live.

 It's confuse. Most of the time I think about the life that I have and the one I would like to have and this week I've been thinking that I don't want life to happen so fast. Or that this time may pass quicky. I want to enjoy the view. Enjoy what you are teaching me. Even though it's hard to live this life and sometimes my feelings about my mistakes, weakness and everything else its all I can think about. But it's okay because you are with me and this is all I need.